Summer 2017 Plans

Summer 2017 Plans

In August 2014, I had no idea the power of a simple Google search.  All I knew was that I didn’t want to spend another summer working a desk job, so I began hunting for other options.  I typed “Christian camp photographer” into the search bar, and the rest is history…

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Finding Whose We Are: His Handiwork

Finding Whose We Are: His Handiwork

  • Career
  • Wealth
  • Relationships
  • Health
  • Accomplishments
  • Appearance

These are just a few of the many false identities that we are urged to embrace.

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Wait and See

Wait and See

Miss Shoaf, Will we use the Chromebooks in Science today?

Miss Shoaf, How many chapters of Holes will we read this afternoon?

Miss Shoaf, When will you grade our tests?

Miss Shoaf, Who gets to be the Math Magician today?

Miss Shoaf, Can I solve number 3 on the board?

Miss Shoaf, Will we have a substitute in P.E. next week?

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My answer to all of these questions is the same:  we will have to wait and see.

The constant barrage of questions I get as a student teacher can be annoying if not overwhelming.  Yet, I sit on the floor of my dorm room tonight, and I exhale my relentless questions to God.

  • Will I pass student teaching?
  • What will I do after I graduate?
  • Should I pursue Option X?
  • Why am I even a student teacher in the first place?
  • What is the purpose of all of this?

Just Wait and See

Suddenly, those words that I say to my students without a second thought are the worst words in the world.

WAIT and SEE

I don’t want to wait.  I want to know now!  Yet, I must trust that God has my best interest in mind, just as I seek the good of my students.  As hard as it is, I know that God wants me to learn and grow.  He knows that I don’t need to know yet.

And so I wait. Very impatiently.

Remember

Remember

I shall remember the deeds of the Lord; Surely I will remember Your wonders of old.  I will meditate on all Your work And muse on Your deeds.   – Psalm 77:11-12

I would be lying if I told you that student teaching is easy. On the days that I make students cry, on the days that I forget to give full instructions, on the days that my lessons fail, I am convinced that I should just switch majors.

If I had a dollar for every time that I wanted to quit…

Hanging above the desk in my dorm room is a quote from Nicki Koziarz:

Sometimes you just need to look back and remember the places God has brought you through.

Surrounding the quote are dozens of pictures. There are pictures from Africa, from when I wanted to completely give up on ever making a decent video. There are pictures taken only days prior to my overnight stay in the DFW airport. There are pictures from all 4 years of college when I was anxious for a multitude of reasons.

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And the Lord brought me through all of it. So every time that the Enemy says that I am flailing and aimless, I must look back and see what the LORD has brought me through. If He brought me through those struggles, he will bring me through this one, too.

Top Ten Tuesday: Dear Freshman Me

Top Ten Tuesday: Dear Freshman Me


Today at 9:30 am, I will attend my last class at the undergraduate level.  Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday I will take final exams, and next semester I will be a student teacher in a fifth grade class.  Lord willing, I will graduate in less than five months.

Looking back, I realize that some of the emotionally challenging days of college could have been avoided.

10 things I wish I could tell my freshman self

  1. God is God. You are not.  Trust His plan, and don’t try to fix it.
  2. Be humble. Be a servant.  Be like Christ.
  3. Treat your body like God’s temple. Worship in it, but don’t worship it.
  4. The accolades really don’t matter, so don’t get too engrossed in the competition. Enjoy the challenge for how it is building you individually.
  5. To have friends, you must show yourself friendly.
  6. Enjoy the moment because it is all you have.
  7. Quit worrying about money. God will supply your needs.
  8. Wear your polka-dot rain boots. Wear your green shorts.  Wear your flowy skirts.  Don’t be embarrassed by your quirky style.  When you finally get brave enough to wear those clothes in your junior year, you will get a ton of compliments.
  9. Get involved in school events and at church. You want people to know who you are.
  10. Perfection is unattainable. Quit trying so hard.

I would never claim that college is easy, but the past 3.5 years have been some of the most rewarding years of my life.  As I learned the ten truths that I listed above, I have grown emotionally, spiritually, and relationally.  I have seen God’s provision to pay for college and missions trips.  I have seen God’s sovereignty to orchestrate convenient class schedules and amazing summer jobs.  God showed His grace by sustaining me through difficult classes and long nights.

Truthfully, student teaching terrifies me, but I must “walk the walk,” not just “talk the talk.”

  • God will continue to provide for me.
  • God will continue to orchestrate His plan.
  • God will continue to graciously sustain me.

Meanwhile, I will believe the ten statements that I want to tell my freshman self.

Hello, My Name Is Jonah

Hello, My Name Is Jonah

I have never heard God as plainly as Jonah did in Jonah 1:2, but if I did, the conversation would probably go like this:

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God: Kat, before you were born, I made an amazing plan for you.  I want you to _____(fill in the blank)____.

Kat: Yeah, I know You are sovereign and all that, but what You want me to do sounds hard and dangerous. Can’t I just stay here?

God: It will be hard, but it will also sanctify you.  In the end, this plan is for your good. Now go!

Kat: Um…sure…I’ll get right on that…

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Instead of completing whatever task God had asked me to do, I make my own plans and fulfill my own desires.  A few months later, we would have this conversation.

Kat: Hey, God! I’m, uh, feeling a little stuck here.  I can’t seem to get out of this mess.  Can You throw Your daughter a line?

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God:  I watched you the whole time you were making that mess.  Why didn’t you just do what I told you to?

Kat: I already told You!  The task that you had for me was hard.  Swimming into deep water seemed much easier.  But now I realize that I was wrong! I am drowning, but if you pull me out, I will go work on the job you planned for me.

God, in His grace and mercy would save me and give me a second chance to obey Him.  Full of piety, I would do what He told me to do and see the results He planned.

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Kat: So, uh, God? It’s Kat here.  Did you happen to see what Marci did last week?  You really should punish her for that.

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God: Yes, I saw her mistake.  She slipped, stumbled, and fell.  But the next day, she cried out for forgiveness, and I pulled her to her feet, just like I pulled you from the pit.

Kat:  Ugh! Don’t You see, God?  THIS is why I didn’t want to obey You at first.  I knew that You are gracious and merciful.  I knew that if I let You use me, You would expect me to be gracious and merciful too.

God: What good is your self-pity doing? Should I not care for Marci who has a soul with an eternal destiny?

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You see, my conversation with God would be very similar to Jonah’s conversation with God.  Like Jonah, I think that my own plan is better than God’s sovereign plan, and I want to be the judge of who deserves forgiveness.

Jonah’s story shows us that we will always fail when we go against God’s sovereign plan.

How will you respond when God calls you to do something hard?

Why I am not worried that Trump is Our President

Why I am not worried that Trump is Our President

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At 11:45 on Tuesday night, I turned off my computer and crawled into bed.  At that point, Trump had more electoral votes than Hillary, but I had a suspicion that Hillary would pull ahead as more states submitted their results.  Although I was curious about who would lead our country for the next four years, I was too tired to join the thousands of individuals who were guzzling caffeine simply because they wanted to know the results.

Just under seven hours later, I rolled over and looked at my clock.  Sure enough, it was Wednesday.  The apocalypse had not happened.  America had lived to see another day.  Before even reaching for my phone, I said a prayer.  “Lord, no matter who won the election, let them lead our nation with integrity and wisdom.”

I powered on my multiple electronic devices and selected the tab titled “2016 Election Results.”  To my astonishment, the majority of the progress bar was red. Donald Trump had been elected to lead our nation.

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I am neither condemning or condoning Trump.  I would probably be writing the same post if Hillary had won the election.  I do not care if our president is a male or female, a republican or a democrat, a Caucasian or a minority, a Christian or an Atheist, a politician or a businessman.  I will always vote for the individual that I believe will best lead our nation, but I will not “freak out” about the results of the election.

My lack of care is not due to ignorance, illogical hope, or “millennial apathy.”  My peace is due to Romans 13:1.

…No one rules unless God has given him the power to rule, an no one rules now without that power from God.

Even in a democracy, God is the one who appoints leaders.  He chooses to use the citizens’ votes to do so, but He is supremely in charge.

This means that ultimately, Trump is not answerable to the nation.  He is answerable to God.

Rulers are working for God and give their time to their work.

-Romans 13:4

So do not dismay.  As a new man moves into the White House, the same God is orchestrating eternity.  Our president is simply “God’s servant to help [the nation]” (Romans 13:4).